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This Big

This post is part of the Just Write link-up, a weekly exercise in free writing ordinary and extra-ordinary moments.

I swear I felt cute when I put this outfit together.

I was so proud of myself- a new pair of shoes, but no other money spent for an outfit I felt good in. This is big news when your belly is huge, still growing, but likely to deflate (at least a little bit!) in just a few weeks.

Every trip to the bathroom reminds me of my expanded butt, thighs, and arms. That's a lot of reminders.

"Everyone" says I'm "all belly," but it isn't true. I am bigger- and not just in my belly. Perhaps I just look that much better in my preferred uniform of choice- a long tank top and a pair of jeans.

It doesn't matter. My bigger body parts are preparation- for cuddling, for lots of sitting, or "lifting with my legs!"

But tonight I am at a wedding.

The band is good. I'm not too picky about what I choose to dance to. I just want a song that's movable.

But this band is good. I find myself resigning to an evening of pulling my fun from watching people I love dance. It's too loud to have a good conversation. That's ok. The music is that good.

I am this big. I'm not really supposed to be on the dance floor. My back and feet probably hurt too much to enjoy it anyway. My husband will find other people to dance with- we are at a family wedding, so we know many of the dancers. Maybe we will get a slow dance or two in.

I am feeling a little boxed in, but I am resigning, trying to soak up the music anyway, swaying in my chair.

My husband turns to me.

"Do you want to dance?"

I do.

I dance as much as I can.

I smile and laugh a lot.

Maybe I am beaming.

I am rescued.

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Heather of the EO
October 11th, 2011 - 08:12

I know just that feeling. Both the observing and figuring out how to have fun and the rescuing. Such a great post!

And I think you look great!
CJ
October 11th, 2011 - 11:27

I have a wedding to attend this weekend. My baby is nearly a year old and I’m still big. Oh well, hopefully all eyes will be on her!
Kristi
October 11th, 2011 - 11:59

Your post brought back memories of when I was 3 days overdue with our first and was at a wedding. I can remember dancing to “Love Shack” by the B52’s hoping it would start labor. (It didn’t!) Love your view that your “bigger” parts are getting ready for cuddling, etc. True and such a positive outlook!
Thank you soooo much for your kind words and prayers for Carrie. I appreciate you commenting at my blog.
Sarah
October 11th, 2011 - 13:48

CJ, I believe people will not really take notice of your “big”-ness as long as you carry yourself confidently. I think pregnancy is one of the few times when “everyone” feels like it is ok to over-observe and comment on size…I guess it makes sense, because crazy things are happening in there.
Anyway.
I recommend looking yourself in the eye, telling yourself all the reasons you can think of that you are beautiful, and having a fantastic time:-).
Barb
October 11th, 2011 - 20:45

Think of it this way – it’s one of the few times you don’t have to try and suck your tummy in You’re beautiful and so right… your body is preparing for big things!
Krista
October 11th, 2011 - 21:08

Oh no, I just looked through your other pictures and you are definitely all belly. And completely cute! And I’m so glad you got to kick up your heels and dance away! Good for you.
Adventures In Babywearing
October 11th, 2011 - 22:18

Fabulous.

Steph
Krishann
October 12th, 2011 - 01:19

Love that you said your bigger parts are for cuddling!!! You look great and I think it was wonderful that you and your Mr. danced. It sounds like you made the most of things and ended up having a great time!
Jack@TheJackB
October 12th, 2011 - 01:29

A good friend of mine almost got himself killed by his pregnant wife when he told her that she was a lot bigger than he expected her to be. Not only did he say it loud enough for her to hear, it was at a party.

I told him that I didn’t think there were enough flowers in the world to beg forgiveness with.
Sarah
October 12th, 2011 - 09:50

Jack-
Yikes! I feel a lot bigger than I expected to feel, but I’m not sure what I would do if someone said that to me!
Sarah
October 12th, 2011 - 09:52

Krista, thank you. Your sweet words certainly left a smile on my face today.
(PS. I’m loving reading your entries. So glad I was introduced to your blog through Heather’s link-up.)
busy bee suz
October 12th, 2011 - 15:06

Oh, this is so sweet. Really, I read your post above and YOU really Are all belly. You look great!!!! I didn’t have a name for either of my babies when we went to the hospital either…you are in good company.
Take care, Suz